a letter for you...

dear YOU-reading-this,

i have resorted to writing to you because all my other attempts to contact you have been futile.

i have thought of talking to you directly, but i realise that it would have scared you. we are so similar yet so different.

this morning, i saw you wake up and i sent a ray of sunshine to warm you up. i also had a few birds outside your window, singing you a love song. i waited for you to say good morning, but you never did.

i knew you loved to drink coffee and the muffins from the coffee club. i was very happy when i saw your face light up the moment you knew a coffee club was to open near your place. i selfishly thought you might say thank you, but i thought, your smile and happiness was enough.

as you went through your day at work, i got worried that you might be too stressed and pressured by your boss. i could see and feel your struggle in the office. i was ready to listen to your complaints and to share your burden. but you kept it to yourself and managed to get through your day. i was glad, yet sad.

i wondered what you will be having for dinner. when i saw you buy take away, i hoped that you would invite me for dinner too.

so i tried to get your attention by touching you with a gentle breeze on your face, knowing how much you loved to feel the cool air on your skin. i thought that you might think of me and at least said hello. but you walked on, ignoring me.

i quietly watched you eat your dinner in front of the television and did your chores. knowing you were tired, i sang you a lullaby on the radio. it was your favourite song. i saw you close your eyes in delight and my heart melted. i knew you were asleep when the smile faded to be replaced by your deep breathing.

how i miss you.

i will keep an eye on you while you sleep, protecting you. just looking at you sleep is a joy.

when will you say hello? when will you notice me?

i love you.

forever and ever loving you...
J.C.